Last night, Mandi and I finished Ultimate Alliance and it played a rundown of all the decisions we made through the game and the consequences they would have on the future of the Marvel universe. Because we rescued Jean, letting Kurt fall to his death when Mephisto kidnapped the two (which wasn't even intentional. We wanted Nightcrawler, dammit!), apparently Mystique would eventually raid the Xavier School, putting Charles in a coma that would last for several months before he dies, thus disbanding the X-Men. How sad, right?
In other news, I'm supposedly going to be trained on the registers so I can play cashier from time to time. I was made to watch the jewelry counter and fitting rooms during Sale Saturday and told Michelle what a great time I had getting to have the chance to interact with the customers, and she and Matt said I could get cross-trained. Glad to be moving up in the world. Apart from that, work still sucks, and I have nothing more on the subject to cover.
Or any other subject, for that matter. My life is just the same as it's always been. I work, sleep, and suffer in silence, or not-so-silence. I guess I will just continue to do that.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Who even knows anymore?
Last night was election night. As in love with Arizona as I am, I can't say I am nearly as fond of Arizona's voters or politicians. My personal victories include WESD bond measure and budget override, Ken Bennett for SoS, the passing of the Health Care Service, and Preferential Treatment Prohibition initiatives, and the failing of the Hunting and Fishing, and (hopefully) the Medical Marijuana initiatives. The latter is still literally neck and neck and we're all just waiting to see it called. That's my understanding, based on my frequent Google Newsing of the proposition. I could go on and on lamenting about Tom Horne, Ben Quayle, John Huppenthal et al.'s victories, but I just won't.
Still computerless, and also now PPless so that's going to be the way it is for a while now. Such is my life.
My financial pickle seems to be improving. I'm catching up very well on my money management, being able to this month pay off most of my debts to Sean, my mom, Scott etc. and next month hopefully not having any more personal debts and can focus on paying off my credit card. I also discovered today that I'm now able to access my Direct Deposit Advance, so if it does come to me needing money again, which it won't because I'm going to start being RESPONSIBLE, I can use that instead of breaking the people around me. Which is a good thing. Though my ACTUAL goal is to build a savings so I can step away from needing to borrow money anymore. Commence Grown Up Jessi.
Also, this month I will be attempting NaNoWriMo. Though, without a computer I doubt I'll get far enough to care. But Mandi wants me to, so I'll do my best. Whatever that is.
I'm not really sure what more than is to write to catch back up with my life. Doesn't matter, I suppose since I have no readers. I think I might put a link to my blog on my facebook so anyone who WANTS to read it, can. Or not. Up to them.
Now back to listening to Julia Nunes.
Still computerless, and also now PPless so that's going to be the way it is for a while now. Such is my life.
My financial pickle seems to be improving. I'm catching up very well on my money management, being able to this month pay off most of my debts to Sean, my mom, Scott etc. and next month hopefully not having any more personal debts and can focus on paying off my credit card. I also discovered today that I'm now able to access my Direct Deposit Advance, so if it does come to me needing money again, which it won't because I'm going to start being RESPONSIBLE, I can use that instead of breaking the people around me. Which is a good thing. Though my ACTUAL goal is to build a savings so I can step away from needing to borrow money anymore. Commence Grown Up Jessi.
Also, this month I will be attempting NaNoWriMo. Though, without a computer I doubt I'll get far enough to care. But Mandi wants me to, so I'll do my best. Whatever that is.
I'm not really sure what more than is to write to catch back up with my life. Doesn't matter, I suppose since I have no readers. I think I might put a link to my blog on my facebook so anyone who WANTS to read it, can. Or not. Up to them.
Now back to listening to Julia Nunes.
Monday, October 18, 2010
I Can't Be Blamed
It's been more than a month since I last blogged. Meaning it's been more than a month since my hard drive crashed and I became without computer. I relinquish all blame for my not keeping up with this blog. Really. It's not my fault.
I don't really know what there is to be said to catch up on the last month of my life. I've been going through the grind of my bullshit job and just trying to make the best of it. Every day gets a little bit easier. I've been spending most of my free time with Mandi as always because she is my life force. I've been keeping contact with my sister and my mom and my grandma too keep my life grounded and keep the depression away.
Unfortunately, I encountered a dramatic point in my life. I suffered my first loss. My Papaw, Roger David Griffith passed away on Oct. 1 at the age of 65. Thank God for my manager Matt for allowing me a week off work to go to Ohio for the funeral. It was a beautiful service, very fitting to honor such an amazing man. The family made the best of having us all back in Ohio and it was wonderful to see them all and honor the memory of my Papaw. He was dearly loved through his life and will be missed by many. It's made me think of a lot of different parts of my life and I've made some resolutions. It was very hard coming to terms with this loss, but now I know that he's with me always. I love you so much, Papaw.
Hopefully Paul will be able to help me get my computer back up before long and I'll be able to resume frequent blogging. Until then, I might occasionally be able to update from Mandi's house as I am now. Not that anyone but her even reads this. =)
I don't really know what there is to be said to catch up on the last month of my life. I've been going through the grind of my bullshit job and just trying to make the best of it. Every day gets a little bit easier. I've been spending most of my free time with Mandi as always because she is my life force. I've been keeping contact with my sister and my mom and my grandma too keep my life grounded and keep the depression away.
Unfortunately, I encountered a dramatic point in my life. I suffered my first loss. My Papaw, Roger David Griffith passed away on Oct. 1 at the age of 65. Thank God for my manager Matt for allowing me a week off work to go to Ohio for the funeral. It was a beautiful service, very fitting to honor such an amazing man. The family made the best of having us all back in Ohio and it was wonderful to see them all and honor the memory of my Papaw. He was dearly loved through his life and will be missed by many. It's made me think of a lot of different parts of my life and I've made some resolutions. It was very hard coming to terms with this loss, but now I know that he's with me always. I love you so much, Papaw.
Hopefully Paul will be able to help me get my computer back up before long and I'll be able to resume frequent blogging. Until then, I might occasionally be able to update from Mandi's house as I am now. Not that anyone but her even reads this. =)
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Very Happy Birthday from the Working Girl
I am 19 years old, and could not have had better.
On the 13, I went to Mesa. Paul and I had cupcakes and went to Asian Cafe Express and a really fun time. Rio gave me lots of birthday licks and cuddles. He is totally the nicest guy I've ever met, as well as being a giant dork. Obviously why we get along so well.
On my birthday, I got lots and lots of texts, phone calls, facebook messages and comments, and just really felt the love. Sean came over and brought me cheesecake because he knows I don't like cake. I won't mention that he also brought cake, because he couldn't actually remember if I didn't like it. Whoops. =P He took me out to Chipotle and gave me a Jersey Shore poster, and apparently I have some other really great gifts coming in the mail. Thank you SO much, Sean. =) Then I went to my grandma's and she gave me a giant birthday cookie, because she knows I don't like cake too. I love her so much. I have the greatest Gaga in the world.
Followed by Mandi and her family who made me fries tres queso dos fritos, aka potastrophe, aka Jessica's Special Potato. It was de-li-cious, if a total pain in the ass to make. Then Mandi and I met Lisa back at my apartment and she gave me X-Men: 198 which was totally awesome and epic and came with a Mutant Database of the known remaining 198 mutants and the threat they pose to O*N*E.
To end the night, Mandi and I went back to her place and caught the end of Serendipity, taking us into midnight. Then we watched Pineapple Express which was EFFING HILARIOUS. Went home, went to sleep, birthday VERY well spent. Still a couple more birthday related gifts and festivities to be had with those that I wasn't able to see, which I greatly look forward to.
Today I started my job at Goodwill. Had a fun day, everything went really well. We did a walk of the training store, learned a lot about the company and about the job. Tomorrow, we're going to be doing hands on work for our particular positions, and next week I start full time. I am so excited. More to come on that.
On the 13, I went to Mesa. Paul and I had cupcakes and went to Asian Cafe Express and a really fun time. Rio gave me lots of birthday licks and cuddles. He is totally the nicest guy I've ever met, as well as being a giant dork. Obviously why we get along so well.
On my birthday, I got lots and lots of texts, phone calls, facebook messages and comments, and just really felt the love. Sean came over and brought me cheesecake because he knows I don't like cake. I won't mention that he also brought cake, because he couldn't actually remember if I didn't like it. Whoops. =P He took me out to Chipotle and gave me a Jersey Shore poster, and apparently I have some other really great gifts coming in the mail. Thank you SO much, Sean. =) Then I went to my grandma's and she gave me a giant birthday cookie, because she knows I don't like cake too. I love her so much. I have the greatest Gaga in the world.
Followed by Mandi and her family who made me fries tres queso dos fritos, aka potastrophe, aka Jessica's Special Potato. It was de-li-cious, if a total pain in the ass to make. Then Mandi and I met Lisa back at my apartment and she gave me X-Men: 198 which was totally awesome and epic and came with a Mutant Database of the known remaining 198 mutants and the threat they pose to O*N*E.
To end the night, Mandi and I went back to her place and caught the end of Serendipity, taking us into midnight. Then we watched Pineapple Express which was EFFING HILARIOUS. Went home, went to sleep, birthday VERY well spent. Still a couple more birthday related gifts and festivities to be had with those that I wasn't able to see, which I greatly look forward to.
Today I started my job at Goodwill. Had a fun day, everything went really well. We did a walk of the training store, learned a lot about the company and about the job. Tomorrow, we're going to be doing hands on work for our particular positions, and next week I start full time. I am so excited. More to come on that.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Silver Linings
I am so blessed with a great support system. My friends and family can do so much magic to make me feel better. Thank God for all of them.
I got my rent paid and taken care of. That was an incredible load off. I set into an early panic when the mail was late arriving, and ended up frustrating some people, but everything turned out okay. That seems to be the way my life goes. A whole lot of panic, and everything going okay. At least it could be worse.
It's almost my birthday, and that's going to really help. Birthday money is going to be useful to put towards the money I don't have for bills so I won't have to ask to borrow as much. I start work on Thursday, so I should be getting myself caught up in October. I can't wait to be able to REALLY take care of myself. I never want to be helpless again. Thank God for the people in my life who keep me afloat through their support.
Mandi, Mom, Sean, Gaga, Sister, Paul, Beka, Becca and everyone else who's contributed to my sanity and happiness through hugs, money, love, or just an ear. You guys are great.
I can look forward to getting back on my own two feet, spending tomorrow in Mesa with all my beautiful Mesa friends, whatever it is that happens on my birthday (yea, I STILL don't have plans), going to Arizona Broadway Theater with my parents, and whatever else happens that will add to my happiness.
I love days when I can truly make myself believe that everything is going to be okay.
I got my rent paid and taken care of. That was an incredible load off. I set into an early panic when the mail was late arriving, and ended up frustrating some people, but everything turned out okay. That seems to be the way my life goes. A whole lot of panic, and everything going okay. At least it could be worse.
It's almost my birthday, and that's going to really help. Birthday money is going to be useful to put towards the money I don't have for bills so I won't have to ask to borrow as much. I start work on Thursday, so I should be getting myself caught up in October. I can't wait to be able to REALLY take care of myself. I never want to be helpless again. Thank God for the people in my life who keep me afloat through their support.
Mandi, Mom, Sean, Gaga, Sister, Paul, Beka, Becca and everyone else who's contributed to my sanity and happiness through hugs, money, love, or just an ear. You guys are great.
I can look forward to getting back on my own two feet, spending tomorrow in Mesa with all my beautiful Mesa friends, whatever it is that happens on my birthday (yea, I STILL don't have plans), going to Arizona Broadway Theater with my parents, and whatever else happens that will add to my happiness.
I love days when I can truly make myself believe that everything is going to be okay.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
"It could always be worse" doesn't help.
I'm not happy.
Nothing in my life is going right.
I still haven't received my money from my dad. If I don't have it tomorrow, then I'm fucked. I really don't want to get Beka evicted. I would be the biggest asshole in the world. I would also have to move to Surprise. Which would mean I would NOT be able to take the job at Goodwill (who still hasn't let me know when I'm training). It would also mean I would have to stop going to Mesa, which would be horrible because the Ross/Evans family is one of my bigger crutches right now.
Sean can't get a new place until he's off this lease. Which is awful for me, because that means breaking our lease entirely. Which means I wouldn't be able to stay here, even if I do have my rent money tomorrow which means I'd have to move to Surprise etc.
I don't know what to do. Even once I have rent this month squared away, IF I get rent this month squared away, I still won't get paid in time to pay rent next month. Hopefully, being that I have a job and know I can make good on loans, my mom will be able to help me with that, but if this summer has taught me anything, it's that I can't bank on much. I thought the stress was over, but it had only just abated. I just want to be done with this mess. I want all of the bullshit in my life to go away. I want to go to sleep tonight, and wake up in the future, with all the bullshit behind me. Married and careered and mothered and happy. That out of the question, I want to be able to afford to eat.
My sister had an episode a few nights ago. She was going to drown herself in the tub, but called me instead. This is a disaster because now I have to add her concerns to mine, which just makes for a mess too big to clean up. I don't mean that my sister made a mess, not at all. I only mean that my concern for her is greater than my concern for myself which adds a great deal more stress.
My fucked up man situation is of course not helping anything. It's so incredibly hard to love someone you don't get along with. How does a couple overcome that?? I don't want to end it, and I don't want to fight anymore, and every day I feel more like those two options are mutually exclusive. There's no room on my plate for this heaping helping of heartbreak I experience daily. I am at such an incredible loss as to what to do.
I had a scare this week. I thought I had tetanus. I felt like I was dying rapidly and horrifically, and I mean that with zero hyperbole. Forming a fist was excruciating, let alone moving my arms and legs, and every joint and muscle in my body. It lasted for about three or four days, before the pain subsided.
I always feel, when I get into these bitching kicks, that my problems are insignificant compared to everyone else's. My sister considered suicide. Maureen Long recently miscarried. The real world is a lot more fucked up than my world. But I can't help but be exhausted with my financial concerns.
What it comes down to is my being lost inside myself and not knowing how to get out. I'm not strong enough to handle this, and no one else is able to help me. What does one do when they can't hold themselves up anymore?
Nothing in my life is going right.
I still haven't received my money from my dad. If I don't have it tomorrow, then I'm fucked. I really don't want to get Beka evicted. I would be the biggest asshole in the world. I would also have to move to Surprise. Which would mean I would NOT be able to take the job at Goodwill (who still hasn't let me know when I'm training). It would also mean I would have to stop going to Mesa, which would be horrible because the Ross/Evans family is one of my bigger crutches right now.
Sean can't get a new place until he's off this lease. Which is awful for me, because that means breaking our lease entirely. Which means I wouldn't be able to stay here, even if I do have my rent money tomorrow which means I'd have to move to Surprise etc.
I don't know what to do. Even once I have rent this month squared away, IF I get rent this month squared away, I still won't get paid in time to pay rent next month. Hopefully, being that I have a job and know I can make good on loans, my mom will be able to help me with that, but if this summer has taught me anything, it's that I can't bank on much. I thought the stress was over, but it had only just abated. I just want to be done with this mess. I want all of the bullshit in my life to go away. I want to go to sleep tonight, and wake up in the future, with all the bullshit behind me. Married and careered and mothered and happy. That out of the question, I want to be able to afford to eat.
My sister had an episode a few nights ago. She was going to drown herself in the tub, but called me instead. This is a disaster because now I have to add her concerns to mine, which just makes for a mess too big to clean up. I don't mean that my sister made a mess, not at all. I only mean that my concern for her is greater than my concern for myself which adds a great deal more stress.
My fucked up man situation is of course not helping anything. It's so incredibly hard to love someone you don't get along with. How does a couple overcome that?? I don't want to end it, and I don't want to fight anymore, and every day I feel more like those two options are mutually exclusive. There's no room on my plate for this heaping helping of heartbreak I experience daily. I am at such an incredible loss as to what to do.
I had a scare this week. I thought I had tetanus. I felt like I was dying rapidly and horrifically, and I mean that with zero hyperbole. Forming a fist was excruciating, let alone moving my arms and legs, and every joint and muscle in my body. It lasted for about three or four days, before the pain subsided.
I always feel, when I get into these bitching kicks, that my problems are insignificant compared to everyone else's. My sister considered suicide. Maureen Long recently miscarried. The real world is a lot more fucked up than my world. But I can't help but be exhausted with my financial concerns.
What it comes down to is my being lost inside myself and not knowing how to get out. I'm not strong enough to handle this, and no one else is able to help me. What does one do when they can't hold themselves up anymore?
Friday, September 3, 2010
Damn It Feels Good to be a Gangsta
HAPPY STRESS-FREE DAY!!
Ahh, rent is sorted out, I HAVE A FREAKING JOB, I have all the people I need in my life to love me, and I've commissioned my sister for a custom made Kitty Pryde Halloween costume.
The job thing is obviously the most exciting thing in my life right now. The brilliant thing is, I didn't even have to apply or interview or anything. Lisa was just like "Hey, manager! My friend Jessica is super rad." and manager was like "Hey, Jessica. Want a job? Come meet me on Thursday." and I was like "Hi, I'm here for an interview." and he was like "Interview? HELL NAH! Just work for me." So I am now employed FULL-TIME, WITH BENEFITS, and Goodwill. WITH one of my best friends. The world is well on it's way to making sense for me again. I LOVE when that happens.
Having a job means that next month, rent will be taken care of easy peasy, but this month, while I was running around crying about not having any idea what the hell to do, I managed to... not know what the hell to do. I ended up sobbing to my sister, who started crying herself because she's a DORK, and then she called my mom who agreed to call my dad and demand he give me money. This month, I am taken care of, and next month I can begin clawing my way out of this rut. And DAMMIT, I'm gonna do it!!! I'm going to catch up on bills, get out of debt, get back on my feet, and buy my dad the best fucking (probably late) Christmas gift in the whole freaking world.
So tomorrow, I will go in and fill out my paperwork for MY JOB at Goodwill, and hopefully begin working soon after that. For today, I'm just going to relax. There's something I've not been able to do in far too long.
=)
Ahh, rent is sorted out, I HAVE A FREAKING JOB, I have all the people I need in my life to love me, and I've commissioned my sister for a custom made Kitty Pryde Halloween costume.
The job thing is obviously the most exciting thing in my life right now. The brilliant thing is, I didn't even have to apply or interview or anything. Lisa was just like "Hey, manager! My friend Jessica is super rad." and manager was like "Hey, Jessica. Want a job? Come meet me on Thursday." and I was like "Hi, I'm here for an interview." and he was like "Interview? HELL NAH! Just work for me." So I am now employed FULL-TIME, WITH BENEFITS, and Goodwill. WITH one of my best friends. The world is well on it's way to making sense for me again. I LOVE when that happens.
Having a job means that next month, rent will be taken care of easy peasy, but this month, while I was running around crying about not having any idea what the hell to do, I managed to... not know what the hell to do. I ended up sobbing to my sister, who started crying herself because she's a DORK, and then she called my mom who agreed to call my dad and demand he give me money. This month, I am taken care of, and next month I can begin clawing my way out of this rut. And DAMMIT, I'm gonna do it!!! I'm going to catch up on bills, get out of debt, get back on my feet, and buy my dad the best fucking (probably late) Christmas gift in the whole freaking world.
So tomorrow, I will go in and fill out my paperwork for MY JOB at Goodwill, and hopefully begin working soon after that. For today, I'm just going to relax. There's something I've not been able to do in far too long.
=)
Sunday, August 29, 2010
I have power!!
So, it seems like I will manage to survive another jobless month.
Of the $460 I need to get everything paid, Scott has agreed to lend me $200. Not only did he agree, he thanked me for giving him the opportunity to help him, after all the help I've given him. Well how about that? I don't know that I've given him $200 worth of help (unless you consider if I'd charged him actual psychiatrist bill prices,) but it's good to know that I have people in my life so ready to come to my aid, as well as being told that I have been valuable in their lives as well. It's gratifying. Well enough to balance out the intense shame I feel having to continue asking for money.
Sean took me around today to pick up some more job applications. I really really want to have a job by my birthday. Huh, God? What do ya say? Birthday gift in the form of self-sufficiency? I think so. Still scrambling for a way to get the remaining $260 I need, but at least now I'm able to be a bit more optimistic.
Last night at Mandi's she and I had a really incredible talk. I talked about my shit in a way that I haven't really done so far, and it felt really really good to say these things out loud to someone who loves me. Mandi, should you ever read this post, thank you so much for being my best friend. You fulfill those duties far and beyond anything I could ask for. I love you.
While I am feeling somewhat better now, two hours ago I had a scare that sent me plummeting into a freakout. I thought my power had been shut off, and I am NOT in a secure enough state of mind to cope with that. Thank God for Sean, who managed to collect all my payment confirmation information and call APS for me to get it sorted out. Turns out, they'd received my payment and the power out was due to a short in the whole building. I had nothing to worry about all along. The amount of relief I've experienced today has been pretty... relieving.
And now I'm just sitting in my living room with my pets, waiting for $200 and some Burger King. When I've posted this blog, I will turn the light on (because I can =3) and read some Gambit.
I finally feel like things are going to turn out okay.
Of the $460 I need to get everything paid, Scott has agreed to lend me $200. Not only did he agree, he thanked me for giving him the opportunity to help him, after all the help I've given him. Well how about that? I don't know that I've given him $200 worth of help (unless you consider if I'd charged him actual psychiatrist bill prices,) but it's good to know that I have people in my life so ready to come to my aid, as well as being told that I have been valuable in their lives as well. It's gratifying. Well enough to balance out the intense shame I feel having to continue asking for money.
Sean took me around today to pick up some more job applications. I really really want to have a job by my birthday. Huh, God? What do ya say? Birthday gift in the form of self-sufficiency? I think so. Still scrambling for a way to get the remaining $260 I need, but at least now I'm able to be a bit more optimistic.
Last night at Mandi's she and I had a really incredible talk. I talked about my shit in a way that I haven't really done so far, and it felt really really good to say these things out loud to someone who loves me. Mandi, should you ever read this post, thank you so much for being my best friend. You fulfill those duties far and beyond anything I could ask for. I love you.
While I am feeling somewhat better now, two hours ago I had a scare that sent me plummeting into a freakout. I thought my power had been shut off, and I am NOT in a secure enough state of mind to cope with that. Thank God for Sean, who managed to collect all my payment confirmation information and call APS for me to get it sorted out. Turns out, they'd received my payment and the power out was due to a short in the whole building. I had nothing to worry about all along. The amount of relief I've experienced today has been pretty... relieving.
And now I'm just sitting in my living room with my pets, waiting for $200 and some Burger King. When I've posted this blog, I will turn the light on (because I can =3) and read some Gambit.
I finally feel like things are going to turn out okay.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Google meme
Hank Green just did it (more than a year ago) and I'm going to do it too. Here.
According to first Google search result:
Jessica needs: Jessica needs fake titties and then she would be perfect
Jessica looks like: Jessica looks like she's got a sock down the front of her panties.
Jessica says: Jessica says Raina deserves to win.
Jessica wants: Jessica wants babies with Justin.
Jessica does: Jessica does Chicago.
Jessica hates: Jessica hates herself, but her comments might be questionable to some.
Jessica asks: Jessica asks you to pray for Tony's protection.
Jessica likes: Jessica likes to think she's a Ghetto Gangsta.
Jessica eats: Jessica eats a live octopus.
Jessica wears: Jessica wears her scoliosis Milwaukee brace in school.
Jessica was arrested for: Jessica was arrested for working as a prostitute in Florida.
Jessica loves: Jessica loves her some taco.
It's true. I do love me some taco.
According to first Google search result:
Jessica needs: Jessica needs fake titties and then she would be perfect
Jessica looks like: Jessica looks like she's got a sock down the front of her panties.
Jessica says: Jessica says Raina deserves to win.
Jessica wants: Jessica wants babies with Justin.
Jessica does: Jessica does Chicago.
Jessica hates: Jessica hates herself, but her comments might be questionable to some.
Jessica asks: Jessica asks you to pray for Tony's protection.
Jessica likes: Jessica likes to think she's a Ghetto Gangsta.
Jessica eats: Jessica eats a live octopus.
Jessica wears: Jessica wears her scoliosis Milwaukee brace in school.
Jessica was arrested for: Jessica was arrested for working as a prostitute in Florida.
Jessica loves: Jessica loves her some taco.
It's true. I do love me some taco.
Someday I'll get it right
Well, this is awkward. I will never ever ever be able to keep a blog.
I just lack follow through. It's a shame really, since I am so witty and awesome. I ought to ensure that my profound and glorious thoughts are preserved for the future. I'm just too lazy and forgetful and whatever other adjectives serve as a detriment to successfully keeping a journal of sorts.
Did you know that you can't be signed on to Blogger and gmail at the same time if your Blogger email address isn't the same as your gmail address? Eff you, Google!!
What's new in my life lately, you ask?
Well, nothing spectacular. At least nothing spectacularly good. I just live here alone with a roommate, a dog, four cats, two rats, and a fish. Though most of my time is spent alone with Finch and Scout (dog and cat, respectively.) I am, tragically, unemployed, and the idea of money makes me want to scream, only because I have none.
Somehow, I manage to make the best of it. Or at least, the good of it.
I am no longer in school (see above paragraph) but still passionate about language and determined to be a high school English teacher. Someday.
I still love all my dear friends. I am single, and while I'm not entirely happy about that fact as a fact, I am satisfied with the end to my previous situation, so I won't complain to that end. Friends and my dog are absolutely more than enough for me. In theory.
Because I have no job, I have much (too much!) downtime in which I read profusely, and watch too much TV I would otherwise never consider. Like Jersey Shore. I feel the shame coursing through me. But also Glee. Which, in spite of being premised on many things I quite dislike such as cover songs, overacting, and obnoxious high school stereotypes, I still somehow ADORE.
I also though, spend very very very much time trying to get a new job. Alas.
I don't really know what there is to say, since the entire point of this blog now and ever was to share my life with myself. A way for me to get things out without giving anything away. Right now, I don't feel like I have anything else to get out. I do want to check my email, though.
I'll just leave this here:
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Never Been Happier
I am alone tonight.
I love Sean dearly but I am so happy to get a night to myself. Everyone needs some quiet now and then. I just got home from Josh's house. We played Trivial Pursuit and I won, but it was a very good game. Sean and Josh are two of my very favorite people to spend time with. They decided we should have a sleepover tonight, but I guess forgot to figure in my having work in the morning. I left Sean there when I came home. I'm sure they're having a lovely time. I'll join them again after work tomorrow.
Sunday I'm going to Leila's birthday party/Kris's Superbowl party. It will be fun to finally get to spend time with Kris as a friend rather than work friends. Wednesday I'll be babysitting Leila, so it will be nice to get to spend some time with her in a social setting before I become "in charge." I know when I was a kid, I didn't want some stranger waltzing in and spending time with me when my parents needed a sitter. Pretty excited about it. Next weekend I have fun times planned with Sean on V-Day. MAYBE Hit up Fanfest on Saturday if I get off work early enough. Hopefully getting to the Ren Fair on Presidents Day. Weekend after that, Lisa, Mandi, Josh, Sean, Miguel and I are all going to go camping up near Flag. Cold as balls, but SO much fun (I hope).
For now, I'm just going to enjoy my alone time. Nothing here but the sounds of the keyboards and fucking Kevin on that damn wheel.
I love Sean dearly but I am so happy to get a night to myself. Everyone needs some quiet now and then. I just got home from Josh's house. We played Trivial Pursuit and I won, but it was a very good game. Sean and Josh are two of my very favorite people to spend time with. They decided we should have a sleepover tonight, but I guess forgot to figure in my having work in the morning. I left Sean there when I came home. I'm sure they're having a lovely time. I'll join them again after work tomorrow.
Sunday I'm going to Leila's birthday party/Kris's Superbowl party. It will be fun to finally get to spend time with Kris as a friend rather than work friends. Wednesday I'll be babysitting Leila, so it will be nice to get to spend some time with her in a social setting before I become "in charge." I know when I was a kid, I didn't want some stranger waltzing in and spending time with me when my parents needed a sitter. Pretty excited about it. Next weekend I have fun times planned with Sean on V-Day. MAYBE Hit up Fanfest on Saturday if I get off work early enough. Hopefully getting to the Ren Fair on Presidents Day. Weekend after that, Lisa, Mandi, Josh, Sean, Miguel and I are all going to go camping up near Flag. Cold as balls, but SO much fun (I hope).
For now, I'm just going to enjoy my alone time. Nothing here but the sounds of the keyboards and fucking Kevin on that damn wheel.
My Day
I just got home. It is one o clock in the morning. My life rocks.
Miguel and I went to see Legion. See previous blog to know more about that. Then we came back here and Sean and Miguel played Brawl, again as I mentioned before. We then watched Zombieland and decided to go play dodgeball. Josh and Lisa came over, we went to get Mandi and buy dodgeballs from Walmart, then met up with Alex, Ryan, Mike, Breen, Brandon, and Hoyt to play at the park. LOTS of fun. My sides still hurt a little bit but SO worth it.
After much of that, we peaced on over to Denny's where Josh, Sean, Mandi, Lisa and I spent another couple hours hanging out. We laughed A LOT as can be expected given the company. Finally we parted ways as Lisa and I both have to be up considerably early.
Now I'm going to go get in bed with the man I love. Life is good.
Miguel and I went to see Legion. See previous blog to know more about that. Then we came back here and Sean and Miguel played Brawl, again as I mentioned before. We then watched Zombieland and decided to go play dodgeball. Josh and Lisa came over, we went to get Mandi and buy dodgeballs from Walmart, then met up with Alex, Ryan, Mike, Breen, Brandon, and Hoyt to play at the park. LOTS of fun. My sides still hurt a little bit but SO worth it.
After much of that, we peaced on over to Denny's where Josh, Sean, Mandi, Lisa and I spent another couple hours hanging out. We laughed A LOT as can be expected given the company. Finally we parted ways as Lisa and I both have to be up considerably early.
Now I'm going to go get in bed with the man I love. Life is good.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
All Is Well
Right now my boyfriend and one of my best friends are in my living room playing a very intense game of Brawl. I really love my life.
I've gone to the theater to see several movies lately.
Extraordinary Measures was fantastic. Harrison Ford was BA as always, and it was just a really heartwarming story. I cried some, but I always do.
The Lovely Bones was not so fantastic. I love that little girl, she was so great in I Could Never Be Your Woman (AMAZING MOVIE. See it now.) and I had high hopes. I expected Marky Mark and her sister to hunt some bitches down and avenge her death. That's what I thought it'd be. But what I learned from this movie is that you can't go to heaven until you kill the hot foreigner and it's totally okay to let your sister's murderer go free as long as your parents are back together because he'll eventually be killed by an icicle anyway.
Daybreakers was fucking rad. Lots of blood and awesomeness.
Legion was also really weird. It didn't make a whole lot of sense and was pretty much really bad. I laughed a lot, but since I don't think humor is what they were aiming for, I won't count that a good thing.
I've gone to the theater to see several movies lately.
Extraordinary Measures was fantastic. Harrison Ford was BA as always, and it was just a really heartwarming story. I cried some, but I always do.
The Lovely Bones was not so fantastic. I love that little girl, she was so great in I Could Never Be Your Woman (AMAZING MOVIE. See it now.) and I had high hopes. I expected Marky Mark and her sister to hunt some bitches down and avenge her death. That's what I thought it'd be. But what I learned from this movie is that you can't go to heaven until you kill the hot foreigner and it's totally okay to let your sister's murderer go free as long as your parents are back together because he'll eventually be killed by an icicle anyway.
Daybreakers was fucking rad. Lots of blood and awesomeness.
Legion was also really weird. It didn't make a whole lot of sense and was pretty much really bad. I laughed a lot, but since I don't think humor is what they were aiming for, I won't count that a good thing.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
My Best Shot
Well shit, Son. I don't even remember when I last blogged. I do know though that when it happened, I deleted all my previous blogs so that was no help at all. Go me.
Now I've decided to jump back in the proverbial saddle and see what I can do. I'm well aware of the fact that when I write this, no one but me gives a damn (hence the theme of the whole silly project) but for now I'll let myself say "why the hell not?" and see what comes of it.
As far as 18-year-olds go, I'd say I have my life a whole lot more together than one would expect. I have a job I love to pay for my very own apartment from which I host all my amazing friends when I'm not working at the job I love. It's a really great life.
At this exact moment, I have my boyfriend asleep on the bed behind me. I am so in love with him. Even if I am mad cold because he likes the AC down obscenely cold. He still makes my world better.
I have done so much growing in the past year. Last year, I graduated high school. What a step. After that I made my first trip to Paris, France which was as life-changing as one would expect. Upon my return, I was promptly ejected from my home. I spent a month or two sulking about my ruined life, and then decided to up and fix things myself. Just after my birthday, I signed my first lease. I'm a big kid now. I go to work on days I need to. I manage my time and money rather well for being so young. I live my life as best I can for myself and I think I'm doing very good at it. My W2s came yesterday. I'll have to do my taxes here soon. I have a credit card. I'm growing up so fast. Won't see me complaining. At least not too hard.
My thoughts can be so scattered.
Now I've decided to jump back in the proverbial saddle and see what I can do. I'm well aware of the fact that when I write this, no one but me gives a damn (hence the theme of the whole silly project) but for now I'll let myself say "why the hell not?" and see what comes of it.
As far as 18-year-olds go, I'd say I have my life a whole lot more together than one would expect. I have a job I love to pay for my very own apartment from which I host all my amazing friends when I'm not working at the job I love. It's a really great life.
At this exact moment, I have my boyfriend asleep on the bed behind me. I am so in love with him. Even if I am mad cold because he likes the AC down obscenely cold. He still makes my world better.
I have done so much growing in the past year. Last year, I graduated high school. What a step. After that I made my first trip to Paris, France which was as life-changing as one would expect. Upon my return, I was promptly ejected from my home. I spent a month or two sulking about my ruined life, and then decided to up and fix things myself. Just after my birthday, I signed my first lease. I'm a big kid now. I go to work on days I need to. I manage my time and money rather well for being so young. I live my life as best I can for myself and I think I'm doing very good at it. My W2s came yesterday. I'll have to do my taxes here soon. I have a credit card. I'm growing up so fast. Won't see me complaining. At least not too hard.
My thoughts can be so scattered.
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